Hello my friends
It's good to catch up! For those of you on my mailing list, thanks for signing up and I hope you are really digging 'In Plain Sight' and the free download 'Laugh or Cry'!
So, what is this crazy new solo venture all about? It's a peep through a keyhole into the magical musical labyrinth inside my head. A microscope, if you will, on ideas which might have stayed labelled and locked away in a cobwebbed cabinet of my imagination-tower, if I hadn't decided that they too needed to enjoy the sun upon their earnest embryonic forms. Each growing into a fully fledged universe of its own.
I feel the need to express, to offer, to share, no holds barred. Don't expect it to be anything like Die So Fluid: leave all preconceptions at the door as you enter :D
And so without further ado, I have an announcement to make.
The video is extremely impactful and personal to me because of the timing, circumstances and location of its creation. We decided to bring forward the release of 'Guiding Light', as it reflects an important sentiment and the mood of this highly emotional time as we try to process and grieve the passing of my friend Al, drummer of Die So Fluid.
It was shot against blackened and ash covered landscapes in the aftermath of the Sand Fire, named after the Sand Canyon area where I live, east of LA's Santa Clarita Valley. It consumed thousands of acres and came within two miles of my house, directly after the day I received news of Al's passing.
You could say my whole world had turned to ash.
Previously, I'd spent a week in London visiting Al in intensive care. My mind was filled with dark visions of the destructive nature of sepsis and the harsh, cruel way in which nature often devastates and yet continues to give birth to new life, new beginnings. I think most of our close group found ourselves lurching from feelings of numbness to anguish, despair and back around again. We still are.
When the Sand Fire was finally under control I had an overwhelming urge to shoot something; maybe it was about the effort to create something, to try to let something out, or just to feel the ash and dirt on my skin. It wasn't until I returned from my second trip to the UK for Al's funeral that I shot the rest of the scenic footage and the areas I explored still resonated strongly with my emotional state.
No matter how massive your loss, how heavy your heart, every challenge is an opportunity to rise to your light, to take the unique familiar goodness that you miss so much and recognise it in others, and in yourself. It's still there in your heart.
Change is the very nature of all things, and though I detest what has happened, I will be changed by Al's death, and I must guide that change towards positivity and growth.
Be strong, show love. For Al. For friends. For family.
I've had dark days of very low energy and days of superhero productivity lately, which seems to be all part and parcel of dealing with such a huge loss. I want to thank you all for your support and kindness through the ordeal and for letting us know how you feel too.
We're starting to make solid plans for further releases and even live work, so please keep in touch and share what's going down with your buddies!